A change

Yes I changed my hair color again,,,for those of you that know me you all know in the past 6 months i've change my hair color like 4 times already....

Yes once again.

once again I try to change

I ry to convince myself that everything will be ok

I keep on changing, I keep on growing but

my heart stays the same

It dosent change color

and it dosent seem to heal

How can I convince others that what they may see in the outside

dosent come close to what I feel in the inside

I hide in my sould and surround myself with fears and agony

I want to change

I want to be happy for once

I want to...

I just want to.. wrap myself in my heart and forever stay there.....

TRANQUILIZER...

Im not the same anymore. It has come down to a point that I am the one who’s breaking my rules and all I can do is sit n play the blame game.Its easier said than done…often there are things you cannot look past…I cannot look past. And every passing day just scratches my wound.Every little thing you do just arouses this inferno inside me which I cant handle and I behave like a psychopath. I feel like tearing things apart. I feel like choking you to death. and thats the sick animal you've made me and u had no bloody right to do so.Some people just grow in years...their brains stay stuck and then when they try to act smart...its a public comedy show.Today i feel like returning the favor , i wanna deprive you of every small thing u deserve and make you pay for it.You fake evry sorrow, you pretend to suffer and its child's play for you now.At times I just press the escape button and get out of your shit coz every justification you give just makes it worse.Every morning I convince myself that its just another mishap.And every morning I lie to myself.You just dont deserve to smile....