Left with death

I left with Death

With no time

left

to stall.

And

like the day this soul

was born,

I felt

no

pain at all.

I've tried and still

I've tried can't you see

and still nobody loves me.

It eats away at me and drives me crazy.

All I want is somebody,

anybody

to love me.

I keep reaching don't ya see,

why can't I stop hiding behind me.

I watch you eyes intently trying to show you what I see,

Yet you keep torturing me.

I'm scared to ask,

but when I do your answer

I know

That no one really loves me.

Thoughts

Hate is the enemy my heart does not want

to surrender to

though sometimes

my weakness comes out

and my tears begin to flow

perhaps

if the people knew

the pain they give one another there would be no broken hearts

I wish to obliterate my enemies

words that fill your mind

with

agony....

Priceless

Maybe there aren't enough words

to explain these kinds of feelings

and maybe the stars don't come out when your not around

or the sun doesn't shine as bright as it does when you hold my hand

maybe

i am too attached to you

and maybe

i can live without you .

But that innocence of yours is what i most adore

that smile that lightens your face is just

priceless

Still Unknown

I am weak inside

and

full of pain

I shout and cry,

but

knowing there is nobody there

to hear me

I swallow

the shame and anger that lies beneath me

I am lost to reality

and living in time

Though I am

struggling through life...

Feeling BLUE

you know someone once told me that am the only one the can make a change in my life
but how do i do that how can i make a change without knowing how to make a change in the first place I feel like i don't belong here
but the truth is i don't know where i belong
there are days that i don't even know who am i
or why am i even here
i don't know what i want
and so how do i know what to change
and if is even right or wrong
i don't know the purpose..

I just

Sometimes i just

want to scream

and shout

and

cry

i want to be able to

cry and

not hide

to let it all out

for once!

No words

What do you do when it all falls down?

who do you turn to when you want to die?

why what makes me smile seems to make me cry

and why what is suppose to be bad make me feel so good

I dont know what to write anymore

I have no words to express the sadness inside my soul.

I contemplate

I realize

I want to

Die!

Am an EMO kid

I hate the person that i have become today.

some days are better than others,

there are days when i pretend to be alive

when really i feel dead inside

but there are days that am in a flat sate

how can i smile when am just not happy?

how can i talk when i just have nothing to say

i make promises and fail miserably at fulfilling.

i can no longer look at myself in the eye.

i tell myself that everything’s gonna be alright,

when i know nothing can be alright.

I lie to myself n it’s the worst of its kind.

i blame my conscience,

my memory, my scratch my walls, i shout my lungs out,

i cry a little and it just adds up to the pool of tears i’ve already created.

Every time i wanna do something to eradicate the pain,

my scar just spreads a little extra, to remind me that its not worth. It fades away the courage i’ve summoned, it tranquilizesmyfeelings and it makes the attempt go sour. i'm wasted.

BLACK

so today i decided to change my hair color,,from bright red to plain black,and of course i had to write about it....this is what i came up with i didint even think about what to write i just wrote this as a third person.


I dont know if she did it
to cover up her lies,
or
to cover her innocence that she once had
i dont know if she just did it to hide her melancholy
but
she did it
in hopes to find her soul
i dont know why she choose to live like this
trapped,
miserable
she has created a tomb,
why dont they just let her be?
she now hides in her black hair

Rebirth

Rebirth.

After death the soul

begins a new cycle of existence in another human body.

But to me rebirth is
the revival of learning and culture a spiritual enlightenment

causing a person to lead a new life and thats why i have it on my skin.

Its a new begining in my life

everytime i look at my wrist i smile,

I smile because at last i feel like i can move on to heaven

from this hell.

I wish

No one hears me,

understands me

I speak in silence

hoping that someone

will see my words,

my messagehoping to find love,

it has arrived so divine

I wish for a stronger,

better lifefilled with everlasting touch

I dream the future, but hold the past

My body is brimmed with so many confusions

Am I really here experiencing fullness?

I must be, the pain is so realthe hurt

I feel could never be imagined

I want

Wanting,

lusting,

to

be

held,

to

be

loved,

to

feel

warmth,

to

feel

your

beating

heart.

without title

She was alone

because no one would ever know

what made her cry,

and die

and turn to ashes inside.

Because the silence was her only hope

her mask of joy.

To understand -

She lost herself that day.

She lost all trust.

It was too much for her small heart to take,

too much for her small mind to forget.

Can it ever go away?

Only imagine

I can only imagine

What it's like

to be alone

How it feels

to be rejected

How to get by on my own

To never share a secret

To feel empty deep inside

I can only imagine

For myself,

I live in pride

I can only imagine

What it's like

to be abused

How it feels

to lie awake

Feeling angry,

tired and bruised

To have no friend to turn to

Filled with rage

I can't release

I can only imagine

My confession

Pain... Tension... Fatigue... Depression... Anger, Aggression, Frustration. All these unwanted sensations - Burning, hurting, tearing. My heart alone, cold and fearing. Why won't you let me sleep, let me rest, Let me forget To eradicate, eliminate, destroy all my regrets? These memories inside, swirling, twirling, unwilling to reside in the corner of my mind. Repeating, resisting, insisting - Refusing to be denied its recognition Of its position in my Frustration, Confusion, Delusion. Ah, to close my eyes and let time fly by, Because there's so much to gain By forgetting these dreams driving me insane. Unfocused, unclear, out of control, My world spinning, spinning, spinning, My sanity flying through the door. My reason, my logic, oh, it's tragic, Like fine sands running through my hands, I'm losing my mind.

No title

Its so hard to try to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong

why cant i just be happy for once and all?..I jus wrote this short poem because this is how i feel today...

Life is a prison,

let me out.

No one to listen,

To hear when you shout

Climb the walls of insanity,

Ride the waves of despair.

If you fall it don't matter,

There's no one to care.

She wont cry

You see the fear that closes her eyes,
The smile she wears is but a disguise,
She won't cry
You see the hope that is finally dead,
She cannot trust for her heart has been bled,
She won't cry.
You see the love that lies within,
But she shall never love again,
She won't cry
no, she just wont cry
You see death's hand that has glazed her eyes,
No one saw her die inside,
They won't cry..