Could you be the one?

It's going to be hard to forget

And pick up the pieces he left

Could you be the one to teach

How to love again and forget?

Could you be the one to come

And mend my broken heart?

Are you willing to piece together

What another broke apart?

It won't be an easy job,

you see My road has been long and rough

And the heart that was once so soft

Is now shut, locked, and tough

But I can feel my heart open again

It's opening for you

Just come in,

and love me back

That's all you have to do

Serenity?

I'm tired of the pain that lingers inside

I'm neither seen nor heard but a soul that's died,

I try so hard not to be pushed aside

But I trip and fall and again I am denied,

If once you would just open your eyes

And actually see me and look past the lies,

I am definitely not as strong as I'd like to be

but please pull me forward and let me be free!

you

I diditn see you,

I just felt you,

and that was more than enough

I knew you were my dream

the one ive always wanted

the one ive always imagined

and for that i want to thank you

for making my dream come true

i love you!

To understand

The poem below was written by Angell reason why i wanted to share it here is bacause i think we all feel like this sometimes and today i felt exactly like the poem says......

As we lead our different lives

There are days when all is wrong

When nothing seems right

When you feel like

The deep blue sky will fall on you

Yet you don't seem to mind

When the unexpected happens

When you worst fears become reality

When your dreams are shattered to pieces

When you realize

That you can't have all you want

When they tell you"I told you so"

For believing in what they call foolish dreams

When they tell you to grow up

When they tell you to deal with it

When they say give it up and move on

You look at the stars and you softly cry

Saying that life isn't for those who give up

You wipe your tears and take a deep breath

As you say to yourself "You can't have all you want

But you can never give upon trying to have as much as you can......"

By Angell

Mental prison

Statistics!

Brake this confusion barrier

This mental prison

I have created this wall for myself

I have segregated myself from the unknown,

I have built these four walls that now surrounds me

they surround

my heart

my soul

and

my mind

frustration,

disconsolation,

isolation,

and the forth one

elimination,

these are my walls

and they have taken over me!

Someone else

Have you ever wished you were someone else?

Someone other than yourself

Have you ever wanted to get away?

To be someone else for a day.

Does it seem like your lane is always jammed?

and everything you do is always dammed?

Do you always seem to catch the red light?

and you never seem to do anything right.

Do you try to make everyone happy, not sad?

but someone always ends up mad.?

If I changed my name

Would you treat me the same?

I hide to cry

I hide to cry

because I have no where to call my own and "happily ever after" is a land too far away,just after once- upon- a- time; just this side of the rainbow and no one really cares anyway

I hide to cry

because I know I will never leave this place and dreams don't really come true its just all make- believe

and it really doesn't matter

I hide to cry

because my weakness brings my tears and I have no one to hold me close no one here who loves me

I hide to cry

because I embarrass the moon and she is my only friend but she's too far away to hold my hand

Saddend Guilt

As I look into the mirror,

I cannot give myself a name.

Through all these lies I've hidden,

and lost myself in shame.

The doors will never open to this castle I have built

set aside is my pain,

so remains this saddened guilt.

failure

To try and try and yet come up short,

to hang my head

while giving report,

not able to make anything right

turns brightest day to darkest night.

Amidst thoughts of strength to find myself weak

brings a gut-wrenching pain of which my heart cannot speak.

Failure has never been part of my plan.

I curse times I don’t,

when I know that I can.

My standard,

my goal,

my hope is perfection,

yet I am met with regret,

rebuke and rejection.

Failure is a companion

I have grown to despise,

its taunts and its laughs are not found in your eyes.

Purgatory 2

I so desperately

cling to

I try to smile

but my eyes betray me

I try to cry

but the tears won't flow

I bitterly eavesdrop on a world that betrayed me

Their lives go on

While mine

is a purgatory

from which I may

never return

Purgatory

The rage and grief begin to fade

The constant ache

of loneliness

retreats

Emotions fade

to nothingness

as a numbing fog steals over my very soul

The only true feeling is fear

I feel myself stepping out of my body

Watching as my world crumbles

through sightless eyes,

empty soul

I fear

I'll never again feel passion

and joy

or even the anger

or despair

shattered

You let me down when I needed you most!

Your razor tongue slashed my soul!!

You chose to attack when my defenses were down!!!

how could you be so cold?

You'll never know the pain you caused

Or the grief and loss I feel.

I've wondered over the days and weeks

if my broken heart will heal.

Our memories are tempered

with bitterness,

But now,

I'll close the door!

I wish i could fly away

Hate is Love

in a way only friends show,

Cold stares linger in the walls

of deception,

A broken soul to

wither to dark skies

The reality

seeping through my mind,

Clashing hearts,

Yet one of a kind.

Crucified words

To the point

that nothing

Means

something.

Those eyes

When I look at your eyes

I stop myself from crying

When I'm alone and think about your eyes

I cry.

I can't stop thinking that one day I'll never see those eyes again

That I'll never see the love or the sweetness

Or the love that makes you who you are.

One day you'll be gone -

gone from me.

Gone from this world.

No matter what happens,

those eyes will one day close

And forever rest in peace.

EMO(emotional)

Inhale...

A blank expression

I ask myself where do we go when we die?

yea i know you probably dont know

but i do know where i go

i go knowhere

because am already here

i made it to this asylum

full of isolation

of demoralization

i dont know how i made it here

but the truth is i've always been here

in this world

full of

llies,

betrayel,

disconsolation

my soul bleeds

my soul in search for love

just one second of affection,

of appreciation

but yet i find nothing

i find what i've always felt

rejection

elimination,

repudiation,

frustration,

Exhale...

I wish you would love me

As I lay here in my dark,

and lonely room,

filled with sadness , and with gloom.

I listen for your breathing,

but it's not there.

I reach to touch you,

but touch only air.

In my heart is a loneliness that I alone must bare.

I feel all around me there is no one who really cares.

So, forgive me if I must cry out

"Is This What Life Is All About?"

to feel so empty, and cast out.

Dont really want to..

How do you walk away from someone you love

And take the road of friend;

Can you reroute the course you have taken

And start over once again?

I don't really want to let you go

But inside me I know I must;

The times we've loved . . .

the times you've left

My heart says stay . . .

but it's my mind I must trust.

Agonistic

Thinking of you - acid rain falls

or are those tears which burn fiery paths of hurt down my face and on my neck

where Ican't swallow or breathe

can this choking be my end?

Yes -but the pain has just begun as the heart thirsts for love

but only soaks in anguish

which drains it of life -

tearing a jagged scar

a raw wound

open and

screeching

echoing through a tortured mind

then time is the enemy

all that remains is a skeleton

of agonistic spirit

A child Died tonight

A child died tonight and the whole world came to see

tuning in from coast to coast glued to their TV.

Microphones and camerass hoving in for the best bite.And I, standing on the outside,felt it wasn’t right.

Dignity is what was missing as the media scrambled around.

Compassion never had a chance upon that killing ground.A child died tonight and madness reigned free.

How do I know you ask?You see, that child was me.

Evil

My heart is colder than a winter

so dont love me

please let me go

i'll break youre heart and toss it and break it

and then give it to you

am selfish

am stingy

you were my cure

and i was your disease

you were saving me

and i was killing you!

innocence

I never felt a thing before you touched my heart and when you touched my body,

I thought I'd fall apart.

When you kiss my lips,

I feel you deep within my soulthen you wrap your arms around meand say you'll never let me go.

When I tremble at your tenderness and melt in your arms,

I know you really love me,

and you'll keep me safe from harm

you know I've never loved or been loved in any kind of way

so I cry for my loss of innocence and the things I gave away

Just listen

I have worn myself out by running from the truth.

And now the mirrored image haunts me.

So just listen

I am without speech,

for my words are offensive.

I am without sight,

for it is clouded.

I am without heart,

for it has hardened.

I am without sound,

for it has muffled.

I am without soul,

for it has drowned

Why is life full of questions?

I have loved,

lost and lived

How do I trust,

how do I love again

I should move on,

it's all in my past

But my pain remains,

continues and lasts

This pain lingers in my heart,

mind and soul

Damn it -

why is this world so cold?

Must say

If these trees could talk,

you'd know my body is dead,

my mind has been taken over,

that's why I am so scared,

I can't control it,

anger is making me blind,

I've been left here on my ownchained to a hate of some kind.

what am i doing here?

I should've been dead 20 years ago!

?

what do you do when it all falls down?

who do you turn to when the only person in the world that can stop you from crying is exactly the one making you cry?

How do you feel when the person you love, loves someone else?

life is full of questions

but we get no answers

i dont have an answer but i do know the cold reality

A broken soul to wither to dark skies

The reality seeping through my mind,

Clashing hearts,

Yet one of a kind.

Crucified words

To the point that nothing

Means something.

Sometimes is just better to lay down

and cry

DOnt ask me

If am scared of dying

well let me ask you this;

Can you see me?

No, you looked right through me.

My pain I wearlike a patchwork quilt.

Surely you saw mein these multi-colors?

Pain, regret, sorrow, rejection.

Each square a tributeof its own to my stupidity.

See the threads?

They are my tears,connecting one painfulmemory to another.

so dont ask me if am scared of dying

becuase am already dead!

Just like me!

You are just like me,

You're stuck inside of it,

can't you see??

No matter how you plead,

no one listens,

Can't you hear me?

I'm screaming,

"Please! Help me

This is not a dream

welcome to my world

My world of lonelyness

of sorrows

of pain

but don't be scared

this is just

my world!

Cell

Why have I chosen to live like this?

The answer,

my dear,

evades even me.

Perhaps because I think it is safe,

Or perhaps it's because they won't let me be.

Have you ever built a wall around you?

Encased yourself in an impenetrable shell?

Sometimes it may feel like it is right,

When actually you're trapped in a prison cell.

Captive

Sitting alone in a quiet corner,

Looking out at the people in the room.

To have just one of them notice me,

Would break down this solitary tomb.

Such a tomb have I created,

So sturdy,

so tall,

so secure,

so strong.

I used to think this was where I belonged,

But I get the feeling I may have been wrong.

Crimson Tears

A thunderous silencebreaks through my thoughts.

What was once many great ideas is now a triumph,

lost.

Baffling words tumble through my mind.

Reflections of darkness hover.

A disturbing peacefulness beckons to me,

and inside myself,

I take cover.

What would it be like to stay there forever?

To be lost in all my cares?

From the inside,

looking out -I cry silent tears.

losing

losing all I can see.

nothing remains.

dripping slowly away the tides recede

and I stand alone.

I look down from the precipice

that is my life and wonder where the tides go.

will they return to fill my gaping soul?

or will the waters dry to flow no more and leave me standing and breathless?

all I can do is wait.

watching from my precipice,

all I can do is wonder.

lost

Confusion

Anxiety

Anger

andPain

Despair

Hatred

Isn't it all the same?

Turmoil

Anguish

Pity

and Revenge

Spurn

Condemn

When is it going to end?

Loneliness

Heart ache

Must I be disturbed?

Desolate

Forlorn

Will I always be alone?

Yesterdat- today

yesterday i learned of love

today i learned of the pain that it can cause

i dont know whats love anymore

or if is even true and inocent anymore

i only know that it caused me pain

the day that you left

and so i dont want love anymore

if is going to cause me so much pain and feel so torn

Eternity?

Wandering in darkness grope,

Finding not a glimpse of hope.

Fingers touch to find my way,

Each foot fall, my heart betrays

The fear which drives me through the day.

Suddenly the ground is lost,

Flailing arms as body's tossed.

Splashing down in crimson pool,

The warm embrace is much too cruel,

I curse this lowly, wretched fool.

Floundering in this self made hell,

Warmth increasing as I dwell,

Within the confines I create,

Screaming as myself berate,

Giving in to this, my fate.

My....

My soul drifts aimlessly in times of hopelessness.It searches tirelessly for meaning and truth ...Yet finds no direction.

My heart bleeds quietly in times of loneliness.It yearns to find warmth and happiness ...Yet it somehow eludes me.

My eyes seek out visions in times of want.They gaze endlessly through the blackness that envelops them ...Yet they cannot see the light.

My ears listen earnestly in times of silence.They search for familiar sounds to comfort and console ...Yet they cannot penetrate the darkness that surrounds me.

My arms reach out frantically in times of despair.They seek strength and compassion to enfold me ...Yet they find nothing substantial to enwrap.

My mind cries out desperately in times of solitude.It poses intense questions that demand answers ...Yet there are none to be found.
My hand reaches out earnestly in these times of confusion.It dials the number of a familiar and calming voice ...And gratefully, my lifeline to sanity ... remains intact.

No title

If a broken heart could cry a river

To float my boat upon

I would cry all night my love

and in the morning be gone

to travel far away from here where no one knows I cried

because you told me you don't love me

and a part of me has died

Just Let go!

What we thought was love and happiness?

Is now gone all that's left is to move on.

Say goodbye and walk away.

Take your wounded pride put it aside.

The game of love you have lost.

Your broken heart is the cost.

Count your blessings and pray.

maybe You will win at the game of love one day.

Just learn when to walk away.

Your strong enough to say good bye.

Don't hold back it's okay to cry love hurts sometimes

ALways there

Day after Days,

Night after Night,

The world moves as I stay still.

Staring at my plain dark bedroom wall.

Mother knocks on my door,

but I feel too numb to answer

She cries,

but I motionlessly don't answer.

I lie on my bed,

Screaming in my head.

Pain forever with me never leaving.

It goes with me everywhere.

Like my shadow,

Constantly there.

Colors

It's not in the white that you really think,

Nor is it in the black.

It washes over us as we peer into the gray.

For in the white, all seems well.

The gray is hidden, and the brightness

Makes us grin and close our minds.

And in the black...we cannot dare to look.

It is what we do not want to see.

It reigns in the shadows of our souls.

Out of fear we turn our back.

If you leave

If you leave my love, you would take my heart with you

If you leave

I will be heartless for the rest of my living days

If you leave

I will lose my all being my reason to breathe

If you leave

I will always love you till the days of my linving days

If you leave

Not here

I am not here,

Not physically,

Not mentally,

Not here.

I am not here,

Not in your eyes.

To you,

I am nothing less,

Than nothing more.

Compared to me,

All is perfection,

Contrasted to me,

Everything.

In the mirror of your love,

I have no reflection...

Passing me by,

With the noise of silence.

Last Breath

She's sitting alone,

eyes in a daze

Her life a map of confusion,

her world like a maze

She holds her head high and wipes back the tears

The words I don't love you echo in her ears

She clasps her hands and bows her head

Is my life over or am I simply dead?

I cant promise

I can’t promise you that I will never stop loving you.

If only you felt the same way That I do then maybe you Would understand why.

You say that I don’ tKnow what love is.

So you say, then tell me What is love to you?

Love to me is like a Roller coaster that I Can never get off of.

It has its ups and downs.

It has its good and bad peaks.

It is an ectasy of sweet fruit,You can just never get enough.

I am like a child and you’re candy,

I want you more and more everyday.

Release

I'm a free spirit that has been shot down and wronged I pleaded for help a kind gentle mercy My heart felt like it rose up to my throat as you choked the life from me I cried with pain; can barely speak your name Throat swelling burning like a flame This fire this burning I'm yearning for help This is all I have ever felt My life as its slipping Veins running cold My blood as its churning its last My lungs choking for air breathing heavy And nobody is there to hold me tight Or watch this site as I fall to my knees In a last try to be set free abandoning all of me

No one

Sometimes I sit and stare

I think and hope that life would be fair

Nobody seems to get it

They just have no clue

That I can be a friend that is really true

Everybody whispers

All the laughs, the jokes, nobody cares

The way they all make fun of my frizzy red hair

or even the red high heels that i wear

If only life could be easy

I wish that life could be fun

I wish I didn't have to run and hide

Did you know?

did you know?...

did you know that I secretly cry and tear myself to shreds every night?

did you know that behind my seemingly warm happy eyes lies a broken innocent, ravaged by many sinful hands?

did you know that I loathe you for disposing and abandoning me in this forsaken hell?

did you know that I bleed for you, that I dwell in this eternal pain for you, that you bind me to this duty?

did you know that you intertwined you and I and left me to take care of our withering souls?

did you know that for every smile I forcefully press against my face a slit is placed upon my delicate skin?

did you know that everyday you kill apart of who I am, that every time you scream at my wrenching, contorting face I grow number?

do you even know that I exist anymore?

She.

Her eyes are swollen.

Her cheeks are red.

Tears pouring out of the lonely girl.

Love was all she asked for.

She got walked all over.

It seemed that no one cared for what she believed in.

As she lays in her bed, saying a prayer to make the pain go away.

She can't sleep, so she steers at his picture.

Trying to put the memories in her past.

She's waits to see, how she's going to make it.

As she struggles to get out of bed, thinking of what went wrong.

She has lost all the faith and all the happiness.

She is lost in the waking of her day.

This feeling

Rainy days and cold nights,These are days I need you to hold me tight in your arms,

Hold me close and keep me warm,

Tell me I'm your good luck charm,

Look me in my eyes and tell me I'm the one for you ,

Tell me I'm your every wish come true,Lay me down very gently,

Then make love to me essentially,

Caress my body from head to toe not missing a spot,

Lets play around like connect the dots,

Lets make each other hot till our body heat rise like a rollercoaster ride,

Take my body on a journey that never ends,

It always seems to just begin,Make me climax like i never done before,

Do what you want to my body its all yours,

Rub me, lick me, kiss me, tease me

do what ever you want to my body as long as its pleasing

MIss u!

Tears fall upon my pillow;

tears spill onto my cheek,

For words, I’m told,

the man I loved, to someone else did speak.

Perhaps I’d do things differently,

but atlast, I never knew.

Why is it you can’t care for me, the way I do for you?

Did you know how much I missed you, when you were not around,

Or how much you helped to cheer me up, when I was feeling down?

Even now, I find that I still want to talk to you awhile.

I remember just how easily you could make me smile.

I hate myself, because I know I hunger for your touch.

I never knew it possible to miss someone so much.